Lost half a Human so far

I have now lost 52 pounds in 4.5 months. I am extremely greatful and happy. I can reach areas of my body that had long since been a struggle. I can take baths without making the water splash over the sides...that is an interesting concept to all the skinnies out there...:). My ulitimate goal is to lose 170 pounds....I know that seems like a lot...but I need to ...I would still be around 140. I only need to lose 118 lbs. more...Wish me luck...

This is my senior picture...I was 137 then. I want to be back to that weight...I had the world at my fingertips and didn't even know it... though that weight hadn't come easy either...in 11th grade I was 205. I lost almost seventy pounds.

This next pic is my biggest point...

Hurts to look at it and see the truth...sometimes you need to though. The next time I think aboutg an oreo cheese cake slice...I need to imagine this picture...I imagine it would be so much better if I was smaller...I already feel better....just have to keep working and reaching for the stars....

my struggle

I am an overweight person. My highest weight was reached in late december at 323 pounds. Science would classify me as morbidly obese. However, since the beginning of this year, I have lost 42 pounds and counting. I have some days where I just want to give up and others when I am so determined I believe I actually scare pounds away. I decided that I had to make my health a priority. I am doing this with the help of God and a single image that stays in my mind. That image is the day I bring home my OTTB. I will not get one until credit card debt is gone and my weight is low enough that I can safely ride. In about 17 months the debt will be gone....so should the weight if I stay on track. I can't wait. The dream of owning a horse of my very own is what drives me. I will have my Dream.

For Jag

There is no greater reason for living, than loving.
When the physical being falls away, our spirit wraps
the loved ones left behind in its warmth.
Carrying them on a soft wind to a place where memories
help in recovery.
Watch the trees dance and sway,
you know that I am near.
Watch the waves crest and crash,
you know I am there.
Watch a snowflake fall soft and silent,
you know I am free.

Wendy,

I hope these words lift you up to meet Jag tonight in your dreams.

He was a special thoroughbred.